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So… anyone have this on their 2023 bingo card? I sure as fuck didn’t.
Just right off the bat: this isn’t an I’m back post. This isn’t even an I might be coming back post.
If it’s anything at all, this post is a I might at some point in the future post another chapter of this. Or I might not and forever abandon this blog and this family, because my fancies are frivolous and short-lived.
At the moment I feel like I would like to update this at some point but that’s- well, we’ll get to that.
Let’s start at the beginning shall we?
… And by beginning I mean the last time I posted on this blog:
2020. This was back in a world of masks and lockdowns and working from home, when I was still at school and actively not doing schoolwork in the first wave of wfh mandates. And 5 months after this, I moved back to England.
Yeah, so, there’s the first factor. I finished school in July 2020, and moved back to London as soon as I realised that I still could before Brexit fully kicked into gear (Brexit only fully came into place in July 2021. 2 years ago. Is time even real?). And when I did that, as you might’ve guessed…
I left everything behind. 3 boxes of books, my record player, a box worth of videogames and films, however many bags of clothes and – of course – my trusty computer, all got packed into my grandad’s garage. Now, when you enter the world of salaries and work weeks and 9 to 5s, that kind of shit doesn’t really matter. Especially when you’re back in the city you’ve grown up in and longed to return to for 5 years, you don’t really think of the fact that you have a Sims 3 blog, or even less about the fact that you wouldn’t even be able to play the Sims 3 had you wanted to update said blog.
That is, until you’re 3 years in, have managed to get yourself quite the collection of clothes and various items again, and feel settled in your job (too settled, at times), and are starting to find that you have the space to start remembering things like Sims 3 blogs again; that’s where the second factor comes in.
Money. As if London weren’t a difficult enough city to live in, years of post-Covid-19 inflation and a so-called ‘cost of living crisis’ (‘so-called’, of course, because it is simply nothing more than corporate greed), makes it so that a salary that you could have put half of into savings in 2020 and still managed to live like a king on, is hardly enough for the basics + a few frivolities and one dinner with friends a month.
Now, as we all know, the Sims 3, although claiming to need no more than 16GB of disk space and 2 GB of RAM, in fact demands a super-computer with preferably 32 GB of RAM and a banging graphics card, the type of which I cannot afford right now and likely won’t be able to in the next 2 years. And even though I’ve decided that I would go for a top-notch gaming laptop and not a desktop (more convenient with frequent moves and flat-shares), those are still pushing £3000.
Now, let’s get to final part of this, which has nothing to do with technicalities and just with my damn thoughts and emotions:
I was 16 when I started this blog. As I’m sure many of you who have experienced the transformation from teens to early twenties know, you are fundamentally a different human being at 23 than you were at 16. Going back to reread the old chapters can be physically painful sometimes (especially those I wrote between age 17 and 18. I’d like to eviscerate some of those captions from existence), so the idea of continuing to write a blog built on that foundation is… unappealing. Although, having reread everything in the build up to this post (while chucking thoughts of ‘what if’ at every wall in my brain), I must admit it wasn’t quite as bad as I suspected. There were quite a few laughs to be had sometimes, as a matter of fact.
So, all of that leaves us with the question of: do I want to continue this legacy?
Ultimately, at this moment in time, yes. Even though I started this when I was 16 (a whole 7 years ago. Sheesh), the Epimeliades still have a very special place in my heart, and I never planned on giving up on them. If I played Sims 3 again, I always knew that I would go right back to this save again.
But that’s the thing – if. As mentioned at the start, my fancies are frivolous and short-lived. I’ve started playing the Sims 4 again a few weeks ago because I was sick which led me to getting back into the sims world which led me to miss the Sims 3 which led me to feeling like I NEED a gaming laptop so I can play this family and update this blog again.
But that’s the thing with all of my hobbies – they hit suddenly and intensely and have a vice-like grip on my soul for a few months, keeping me in an all-encompassing state of wanting to spend all my time and money on that one thing, until, just as quickly as they came, they leave again.
Until it is once again their turn in the obsession rotation, that is.
So we can assume that, even if this phase is kicked to the curb in in a matter of weeks, eventually it will crawl its way back and awaken the frantic thoughts of ‘I need to get a gaming laptop’ once more. We can only hope that this will not take another 3 years.
But let’s say if, for the sake of it, that all of the above ends up working out and against all odds I have both the means and the will to come back to this family. We have another problem on our hands.
I have enough screenshots for about ¼ a chapter, and after that I went off the rails in a direction I refuse to go in, thank you very much. I won’t reveal much, because I do still want some aspects of that timeline to prevail into the new one, but everything – spoiler – after the big move will be scrapped.
What I will divulge, is that I opted for dual heirship with Boreas and Bia, which is something I absolutely DO NOT want to do anymore. Dual heirship in gen 3 after being away for 5 years? Chyeahhh, I think not. Not to mention that I don’t remember the context of any of the screenshots. Usually that isn’t too much of an issue, a lot of creative liberty can be taken and wham bam thank you ma’am, but in this case it would lead to really disinterested and lifeless captioning because I remember wherever I was going was good at the time, which is not what I want.
The problem is, that I love both Boreas and Bia (Brontes and Briesis have clearly been removed from the equation lmao) equally but for completely different reasons. Boreas I love for his lame awkward fake-evil (except for rare occasions) personality. I can’t imagine parting with him, even though I’m pretty sure he’s an Antheia face-clone. Bia I love for her genetic diversity, her colouring, the YA outfits I made for her (which I would try my goddamn darndest to recreate), AND her personality. She’s an all-rounder, and the obvious choice on paper. And of course, the thought of kicking either to the curb fills me with a dreaded anxiety.
So now you see, even if the stars do align, I have no idea what to do. I mean, look at these fools:
Yes in this timeline that will never come to pass we went back to the future YET ANOTHER TIME for whatever reason. God knows what was going through my mind.
How am I possibly to choose?
I don’t know if there’s anyone still out here or if I’m just talking to the void, as it seems like sims-blogging has kind of fallen off in recent years (which is completely understandable, I imagine we’ve all been hit with a healthy dose of real life), but if there is anyone still around, then I’d definitely welcome any and all input in this non-issue of my own making. If not that’s also fine, I’ll just flip a coin or something.
And now to wrap up this disgustingly long update (was essay length really necessary, Martie?)…
TLDR: I may at one point in the future post another chapter of this, or I may not. Either way I am being incredibly indecisive about it, so at least you know I’m consistent.
I do have a huuuuuge backlog of screenshots for my other blog that I may try to sort through and force into something chapter shaped to release into the world while I’m just sitting here twiddling my thumbs. I’ve been flipping through the screenshots constantly recently, trying to arrange them in chronological order and remembering all the good times that were had (and bloody good times they were), so maybe expect that sometime soon.
Other than that, that’s all from me (queue chorus of finally!!).
Toodles!
Epimeliades Legacy 